Motivation.....

WHERE ARE YOU!??? Not doing so good now folks. I make a plan and don't do it!! It's hard to MAKE myself hurt. The pain hurts and I guess I am so afraid of failing I don't wanna try. I'm so embarassed to workout or run. I've never met anyone else that feels like that. Not just my size but my endurance and ability is what is lacking. That is embarassing how do I get past it. How do you get motivated??? Go outside the box here folks cuz trust me I have tried EVERYTHING!!! I was able to motivate Chas and he thought he was unmotivatable!!!! I wish someone could find see in me what I don't see, if it's there. I have determination but when I'm tired and exhausted.. It doesn't do it for me..... Gotta be some help that you motivators that are out there can go even further outside the box than u ever have before to share with me?